Where on earth is this place?

Sitting on a fragile raft, the depth of the ocean beneath me, my sail catches the wind and takes me to unkown lands and unknown adventures. I some times wonder how I appear to you sitting on your own raft as we pass each other by. If you are on calm waters now and would like a mooring post, check out http://www.fenn.net .



Hofmann: During this trip home on the bicycle - it was about four
kilometers - I had the feeling that I could not move from the spot. I was
cycling, cycling, but the time seemed to stand still. In my report afterward, I
mentioned this trip on the bicycle to show that LSD affected the experience of
time, as an example of the distortion of the sense of time. Then the bicycle
trip became a characteristic aspect of the LSD discovery. As we arrived home, I
was in a very, very bad condition. It was such a strange reality, such a strange
new universe which I had entered, that I believed I had now become insane. I
asked my assistant to call the doctor. When the doctor arrived, I told him that
I was dying. I had the feeling that my body had absolutely no feeling any more.
He tested me and shook his head, because everything was
OK.Then, my condition became worse and worse. When I was lying on my couch, I had the feeling that I had already died. I believed, I had a sense that I was out of my body. It was a terrifying experience! The doctor did not give me anything, but I drank a lot of milk, as an unspecific detoxicant. After about six hours, the experience of the outer world started to change. I had the feeling of coming back from a very strange land, home to our everyday reality.
And it was a very, very happy feeling and a very beautiful experience. After some time, with my eyes closed, I began to enjoy this wonderful play of colors and forms, which it really was a pleasure to observe. Then I went to sleep and the next day I was fine. I felt quite fresh, like a newborn. It was an April day and I went out
into the garden. It had been raining during the night. I had the feeling that I
saw the earth and the beauty of nature as it had been when it was created, at
the first day of creation. It was a beautiful experience! I was reborn, seeing
nature in quite a new light.
From: Stanislav Grof interviews Dr. Albert HofmannEsalen Institute, Big Sur, California, 1984Prof. Sridhar went on to say that Drugs can be quite deceptive. He told us a story. One day some youngsters decided to experiment with drugs. During his "trip" one of them had an amazing discovery. It was so amazing that he was afraid that he wouldn't remember it the morning after. So he wrote it down and locked it safely in his drawer. The next day he was excited and went straight to the drawer to look at his amazing discovery (he didn't remember what it was). With hands trembling in anticipation, he opened the carefully folded piece of paper to read "The distance from my bed to the bathroom door is 12 feet."! Our prof. went on to say how the emotional "highs" of an altered state of consciousness may come from trivial things and have no long term significance. Nothing carries over from the night before. Nothing to take away for life. I wonder if Jim Morrison would agree.
Btw, if you have come this far... you deserve a break. Here is a piece from an interview with Dr. Grof the speaker is Dr. Stansilav Grof.
DR: When you were growing up in Czechoslovakia, what first led you to pursue medicine, and in particular psychiatry?
Stan Grof: It was a very interesting thing. I never dreamt of becoming either a psychoanalyst or a physician, and I spent much of my later childhood and adolescence very, very involved and interested in art, and particularly in animated movies. Walt Disney was my great hero. Just before I graduated from high school, I had an interview to start working in the film studios in Prague. At that time, a friend lent me Freud's Introductory Lectures in Psychoanalysis. I read it in basically one sitting, and it had a powerful impact. Within a couple of days, I decided that psychoanalysis was so interesting that I sacrificed my original plan for a career in animated movies. I decided to enroll in medical school. It was almost like a conversion experience.
Back to Last Night...
So what was last night about? The question comes back to haunt me this morning (thank goodness it didn't interfere with the actual experience). I read what I wrote on my blog. LOVE???!?!?!?! I check my phone call register for more clues to yesterday. Other than my wife, there are other women on the list. Uh Oh.. But wait... there are also men. What connects all the names on the list? They are all people who have either enjoyed my terrace or I know have enjoyed similar experiences. I go back to my blog from last night. Maybe love is not about wanting to own or possess another person? Maybe it is not gender specific? Maybe its a deeper need to share our experiences? Is that why authors write? Is that why I write my blog? Am I in love with YOU right now?
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